We reacted by turning inward, circling the wagons within our new family and holding each other up. We even found ourselves in the difficult position of arguing to convince people that, no, everything “wouldn’t just be fine.” That this diagnosis was serious and life-altering and clouded every future plan we had for our son. But no matter how many offers of help and sympathy came our way, it felt like nobody understood what we were going through. Of course we had concerned family and friends that supported us and wanted to help. The fear was compounded by a feeling of being alone. It was a time when our overwhelming emotion was fear.įear of the future that had suddenly been turned upside down.
The first time I heard it, those lines instantly took me back a few years, to when Ryan was newly diagnosed. The song came out in 2006, when Ryan was six.
